My motivations to Follow the Spiritual Path- 1
In this article I will tell you about my motivation to follow the spiritual path, from the beginning . For reasons of extension, the article will be divided in 2 parts.
As I told you in the post A Bit of Our Story, I was, a long time ago, a «fallen being» and did fall from the 6th sphere. It is not a common thing that «fallen beings» turn around and return to the normal path of growth so, it is part of my divine plan, in this lifetime, to share my experience to demonstrate that at any point ,we can change the decisions that caused the fall , because there is nothing that can’t be changed on earth.
Beginning in 2012/13, I began suffering psychic attacks and, with no knowledge, about these matters, like most people, I thought that someone was attacking me with «black magic».
After some difficult years, I was desperate for something that could protect me from this. It was this expectation that made me look for «something», and the easiest way was the Internet so, that’s how I found the sites of Kim Michaels and learned, with astonishment, that there are «fallen beings» incarnated on earth, and others not incarnated but controlling others incarnated on earth.
And after I learned a bit more, I recognized that what was happening to me was that I was under attack from these beings, that didn’t want me to grow spiritually and fulfil my divine plan.
After some time, I had to let go of the expectation that «the Masters, Archangel Michael , God» would make this go away from my life and accepted that I would continue to be under attack from these forces, as long as I remain on earth and felt Master Jesus’s appreciation for me when I accepted this.
These attacks have continued to this day, mostly when I am asleep or ready to sleep, and there are many nights when I can hardly have a normal night sleep. But after some time, I recognized that the resources of these beings to attack us are limited, at least in the physical plane. And learned to live with that, although annoying that it is.
But the most dangerous attacks they send to us are the psychic or mental ones, projecting in our minds thoughts, feelings that, for an untrained and unaware person, are felt to be their own thoughts and feelings. They use our fears to create «atmospheres of panic, that can be terribly paralyzing to stop our desire to create anything and act on earth.
And these are very difficult to transcend, until we finally recognize that «I am not this fear, I am more than this. » And with this recognition, we change our sense of self. Until we are able do this, lifetimes can pass, many years of hiding from the world, in the need to protect ourselves from anything that can hurt us from the «outside». What they create, in extreme cases, is a continuous state of mental «depression» where we feel a «dark cloud» upon us, and fear everything coming «from the world».
To come out of this, we need help, we can find some relief with psychological therapy to help us regain some assertiveness in ourselves but, most of all, we need spiritual help. And we can ask for this help from the Masters or our Christ self, to give us the strength to, again, be able to assume the responsibility for our life and train ourselves to be constantly alert to learn how to distinguish our thoughts and feelings from the ones that are projected to us.
Many of us feel close to a particular Master, feminine, or masculine. Asking that master for help can be very positive, but we must do our work too, in changing what made us vulnerable to the attacks of those forces. And the Masters will help on this.
This training is the most important skill we can have, to consistently grow in the spiritual path. Because, until the last day we are on earth, the dark forces will always project unto us for several reasons.
I can give my own example, right now: little time ago, I began thinking that I would create some way to give knowledge of my example on the path, and my insights and learnings through the teachings of the Masters, as a part of my divine plan.
But almost every day, after I finish to write a post or am thinking about what I am going to write in the next post, I feel suddenly some «thought» that seems to be mine, like, «probably this is a mistake, this really is not necessary, maybe I should give up» etc, etc. And what I do is compare these thoughts with others I had an hour or minutes ago, the last day or other days before and become aware that this doesn’t come from me, this is a projection.
When I recognize a projection, I also use Jesus ‘s expression «get behind me satan, I am not you , I recognize your unreality and don’t want you in my stream of consciousness». This also helps me to reassure myself and my sense of identity.
After some time, it is more difficult that they can trick us with this. But we must keep very alert to distinguish what is our mind’s contents, created by us, and what is projected to us, and we accept as our thoughts or feelings.
From my experience, this ability «to recognize a projection thrown to us», is one of the most important skills we must develop in a planet like earth. If we do not learn this, our mental and emotional bodies can and are used by these forces as If we were puppets on a string and believe me, they feel very amused with that.
I remember an episode, when I began to be under attack by these beings and was totally ignorant about what was happening, I went to the internet and believed that I was facing black magic attacks. I found some «remedy» using herbs and was fumigating them through the house, one day, when I felt a clear but silent laugh from several invisible beings, mocking of me for my naivety and ignorance.
In my next post I will continue to talk about my motivation to follow the spiritual path until this day.
