Overcoming the Doubt Relating to the Birth Trauma
In this post, I will write about overcoming the doubt relating to the birth trauma. I follow Master Kuan Yin’s teachings.
Master Kuan Yin says in Her discourse about the selves that followed the primal self [1] that, After the creation of the ‘Primal Self’, other selves followed, becoming associated with it. These selves are rooted in feelings of doubt and fear:
«But what is the doubt in your mental body that opened you up to the fear? It may have been, as just one among many examples, that you were exposed to a situation where the fallen beings either killed you or killed many people in your family or society».
Until that moment, the newly incarnated being had never experienced anything so brutally traumatic, and the shock caused a reaction in the body that created a feeling of imminent danger to survival.
This being had never had such a traumatic experience before, either because he had incarnated on so-called ‘natural’ planets that did not experience extreme physical violence, or because he had never encountered beings capable of destroying other forms of life in such a savage way as on Earth.
This generated a self of fear in his emotional body. This fear was so intense that it manifested in the mental body, where doubt began to take hold because doubt is a mental process:
« in your mental body there was this doubt that you could protect yourself from this, that you could not avoid this, that God could not protect you from this, that there was no force on the earth that could protect you from this»[2]
The amount of energy unleashed by this process of fear affected the mind in a process of doubt where emotional and thought elements came together, ended up also affecting the sense of identity because, in its reaction to the experience, the conscious you – the spiritual identity – was placed in the background by the self that emerged from the trauma, the «primal self».
As I wrote in a previous post, it was this self that assumed control of the mind. It is this self, connected to the physical body and the mortal identity, that has felt and still feels doubt since that moment.
«I said that fear springs from doubt but doubt springs from a limited sense of identity. The only way to truly overcome fear is to overcome doubt but how do you overcome doubt? Only by realizing that you are more than this identity, the self you have in your identity body».[3]
In this way, a vicious circle was created in the mind, in which the anticipation of danger generated fear, which in turn generated doubt that was now in the identity body, contaminating the sense of identity which was now associated with the image of a vulnerable being in need of protection from the many dangers that threaten survival on Earth.
The experience of the primal- self generated a wound in the sense of identity, and this was the beginning of a general sense of doubt: the doubt that our survival on Earth is in danger, the doubt that God, ourselves or anything on Earth could protect us from the dangers of being on this planet.
Because at the time of the traumatic events the conscious you did not want to take decisions anymore, accepting to identify with the primal-self generated in this experience, a belief was also created, associated to the primal-self:
This belief stems from the doubt that our spiritual identity or God can protect us, and the idea that we should rely on the created primal- self to control our minds and our lives.
Additionally, born from a general sense of fear in traumatic circumstances, the primal- self, generated other selves to help it control anything related to our lives.
I would like to remind the reader that both the self that doubts and the self that reacts to external conditions, such as birth trauma, are born from duality. When the traumatic event occurred, the body generated a reaction to the experience in the form of physical pain, and a self was created to take control of the mind.
When we experienced this, our attention was completely focused on safeguarding our physical security and the survival of our material beings. At that moment, our conscious mind focused on the reactive self, identifying with and accepting it as the best way to respond to the external world.
After that moment, the fear took control of our lives without being noticed, generating several selves that we recognize in the emotional patterns that arise automatically when we feel ‘in danger’ in any circumstance.
The doubt originated in the mental body, but, since it was fuelled by fear, it intensified and reached the identity body, altering our sense of identity. Now, we identify with the self who is afraid of dying, afraid of suffering and has a compulsive need to control everything in our lives.
In this way, doubt became a Catch-22 situation that imprisoned us in a downward spiral of fear.
The only way to overcome it is to confront the experience that formed our primal self and tell that self: «I am not you and you are not me. I am letting you die. I am a spiritual being and am not defined by this self».
In order to move forward, it is necessary to relive the birth trauma and dismiss the self, along with the beliefs that created it: ‘I can’t cope with this world on my own. I’m powerless to deal with the material realm and survive in it’. The primal self will resist, of course, causing a fear of death.
It is the primal self that feels this way. In order to overcome the doubt relating to the birth trauma, the conscious you must jump out of the identification with this self, by recognizing that it is not that self, «I am not this self, I am a spiritual being, I want to let you die».
By separating from this self, the conscious you’ reconnects to the spiritual identity, the I am Presence. Only by separating from the outer self and letting the primal- self die can we deal with the selves created in association with it, forming a conglomerate.
We must remember that, in every circumstance in which we have experienced it, doubt always comes from the external, dualistic self. This self was created to react to the circumstances of the material world with programmed, automatic responses that make us behave like a computer.
However, our spiritual self — the conscious you — has access to the mind of Christ and Christ’s truth. Therefore, whenever we feel doubt, we must remember that it is the ego-associated self that feels doubt, not our spiritual self. We dismiss this self, to completely overcome the doubt relating to birth trauma.
[1] In Fulfilling your Highest Spiritual Potential, p.11, dictated through the messenger Kim Michaels
[2] Id., p. 12
[3] Ibid., p. 13
